Oh Mam,
I wish you where here. My lifes a mess and my heart is shattered. I love him so much, tonights hard and tomorrow will be harder. Ella is missing him like mad, that hurts too. I'm praying to God Mam for a mirical but what will be will be I can't change it. Somewhere somehow I'll have to find some strenght in me to deal with it for Ellas sake alone. I've lost you, Dad and my beautiful Star WHY do I have to lose Chris too?????????? It's just getting too much now Mam, I feel so alone, just me and Ella against the world but I feel astho I have the world on my shoulders. I need some help Mam again and as always eh!! I'm sorry my life got this bad bet you and Dad wonder what the hell Happened to me. I miss you both so much. Please send my love, huge hugs and kisses to my Star. And please try and help me. Love you Mam
Claire xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
clairenendick217
7th August 2009